But it didn't happen that way. Instead, I woke up in the middle of the night breathing in fallen strands of hair that had landed onto my pillow. I took a shower, and all I can tell you without too much detail, was that it was as though I was the star of my own horror flick. I literally began to gag and dry heave. I called Supercuts and told them I was on my way. It was pouring rain out and I didn't have a chance to call my daughters who were going to go with me and be there when it was time to shave my head. I just ran out the door with my baseball cap on. I turned the car on. The radio came on with the one song I probably didn't want to hear at that moment..."Celebrate, good times, c'mon! There's a party going on right here...a celebration, to last throughout the year." I quickly turned it off. My gas tank was below empty, but I didn't care, I took a chance on an empty tank and went without stopping. Thankfully, I got there and I only had to wait a few minutes. No one else was waiting, and there were no children in the salon, which is a good thing, because unlike the video in my mind, I was sobbing elephant tears. I was not strutting, nor feeling empowered.
I sat in the chair and said "take it all off" to the stylist. I closed my eyes. I felt the electric razor with every stroke, the hair falling. I bit my bottom lip. "Wow!" She exclaimed, "You have a perfect head!" I was grateful for that comment. So very very grateful. I opened my eyes, and honestly, I look sort of like a martian, but not a scary martian, just a martian. She asked if she could give me a hug, and I was grateful for that too. I wasn't alone. I was relieved for the hug, and to have the haircut over with.
That was it. In less than two minutes, I was bald. Still me. Just a bald me. Bad to the bone wasn't playing in the background. I didn't have my leather boots or my smokey grey eyeshadow on. But I strutted out nevertheless. Sometimes, that's all we can do.
Sweet Dreams And Always GOOD Dreams,
p.s. ...And when you feel like you can't hold your head up, strut anyway.